And so as you go along with meditation, you will find many different phases where parts of you may resist it. You might resist it, because it is difficult, you might resist it, because it’s boring, you might resist it, because you don’t think anything is happening, you might resist it because the reasons why you used to meditate are no longer relevant to you, and you haven’t really found any new reason, and so you resist it. There is even a kind of thinking in some spiritual circles, that since you have sensed the truth of your being, since the divinity is already present, then meditation simply tends to reinforce the idea that there is something that you need to attain. And well, while that kind of idea has a certain logic to it, it also oversimplifies something that is very deep in our experience, that while it is true, that our divinity is already present, it is also true that it doesn’t do you any good at all, to have divinity within you that is present, that you are not aware of.
If you are not aware of it, it doesn’t help you, it doesn’t transform you. If you are not awake to IT, then it is as IT is not there at all for you.
So, in that case, as I have said meditation does not need to be seen as a way of pursuing something, or trying to maintain a certain state, but simply as a way of allowing the depth of your being to reveal itself. And there is no end to this depth. There is no end to the depth. And this is something really important to realize, that there really is no end to the revealing.
And at any point along the way, we have conscious or unconscious, very hidden resistances arise. The resistance may arise just in a sort of disinterest, where we just don’t feel interested in meditation. But these more subterranean resistances to sitting in silence, which is really what meditation is, are really nothing more than resistance to the next quality of depth revealing itself.
And so we don’t need to look at meditation in terms of trying to attain.
A mature meditator, someone who had some degree of realization, isn’t going to be meditating to try to achieve something, and also isn’t going to be meditating in order to sustain a given quality of experience. This is another mistake people make, when they get into meditation, that they are maybe trying to sustain an very expansive, transparent quality of consciousness all the time. And this isn’t necessary. It isn’t necessary because it is a subtle form of control, and freedom, spiritual freedom is not a form of control. It is not based on your consciousness being expanded or contracted. It’s not based on your consciousness being any particular way. It’s free, because it’s the freedom from trying to control your mind-state, trying to control your consciousness.
As you begin to realize this, and it becomes true for you, in your own experience, you might find yourself loosing the motivation to do any meditation, because you wonder “Why should I do that? I am not interested in trying to sustain a particular experience, even an experience of peace or wellbeing. I am just not interested in it”. It is no longer relevant to where you are internally.
But when that happens that’s another invitation. For a transformation, for an evolution in the reason for your meditating.
I’m not saying that people should or shouldn’t meditate forever. I’m simply saying that meditation is one of the most powerful tools for the truths of existence to continue to reveal itself to itself. And since there is no end to that, then the potential for meditation to keep those doors of perception open, is very real and very very relevant.
But the more mature our sitting gets, the more simple it becomes. Until the meditation is really just about sitting there.
I remember a retreat a few years ago, when I was talking about meditations, someone raised the hand, I called and then they said “What do you Adya do, when you meditate?” And I said “I don’t do anything” And they looked at me kind of confused and said “But what… You mean, you sit down and..?” I said “Yes”. “But what do you do? What do you focus on?” And I said “Really I don’t do anything at all”, which is – not doing anything at all, it’s actually completely natural and spontaneous way of meditating. But if I have started meditating years ago by telling myself, “I’m just going to sit down and doing anything at all”, I probably would be there lost in my thought, lost in my imagination. There is a time, when some amount, but not too much, some amount of discipline of mind is necessary. There is a time for many techniques of meditation, but as we mature, those heavy-handed techniques become less and less and less relevant to us.
You can do any form of meditation from the attitude of non-grasping. Any form of meditation at all. So when I get up each morning, and I find myself drawn to just sit in stillness, I don’t find myself doing it in order to attain something or achieve a certain state, because it’s abundantly clear to me, and it has been for a long time, that everything I was ever seeking, I already am. And so my meditation is not a form of seeking anymore. It’s not a form of striving in any way. There is no desire in it. It’s just sitting. Because something very deep and fundamental inside is simply drawn to do it. And I find, by listening to that draw that the inner truth just continues to reveal itself. Deeper and deeper and deeper.
And it’s also just simply good for you. It’s good for your body to relax, it’s good for your nervous system, it’s good for your emotions, it’s good for every part of yourself. It’s good for to just be, sit down in stillness and be, and deeply and truly relax. It’s simply good for you.
And it has its way of continually presenting you with yourself, as that evolves and changes and continues to reveal greater and greater depths of being, and greater and greater connectedness with all beings.
Sometimes people think, that if you have been meditating for a long time, that you a doing some very esoteric or very subtle and complicated technique. And I found it to be just the opposite. What I find is the most simple gestures of meditation. Something very similar to what I cover in the foundational meditations. It’s really more what I am drawn to. If I am doing any kind of technique at all, it is actually back to the most simple things. It’s not the really complex things, it’s not subtle things. It’s something very basic, it’s very simple.
And it’s a paradox that the most simple and the most basic forms of meditation are often those meditations that end up revealing the most. Probably because they are simple. Because it’s the truth that from simplicity, a simplicity of vision, a simplicity of awareness, a simplicity of experience flows out a tremendous depth of Being.
So never thing that a more complex way of meditating, brings a more deep state of being. It’s generally just the opposite. And the more mature we become in our meditation, the more mature we become in our spirit, the more simple we become. Until life itself just feels like an unfolding simplicity.
In fact the most mature form of meditation is where the meditator, that sense of someone-ness, who is trying to do something falls away. In the ultimate state of meditation, there is simply meditation with no sense of a meditator at all. Then we are in a completely unified state, which is our natural condition.
– Adyashanti – Guided Meditations –